One year ago…
I was getting ready to go into surgery, not knowing if we’d be able to have children when I came out
I was living in Denver with my family and dear friends near by
I had just gotten sweet little Lola to help my aching heart.
A lot can change in year and a lot can stay the same.
I am getting stronger every day, physically and emotionally
I am living in Tucson, far away from my family and friends
I still have sweet little Lola and of course silly BIG Ivory, they are both still helping my aching heart
I am thankful,
That my tumor was not cancer
That I am healthy today
That I have my true love and supportive husband by my side
For my sweet dogs that give me kisses and love
That even though I am not living near my family, I still have their love and support many miles away
This year has been tough. There is nothing about it that has been easy. My friend the other day wrote something on facebook about being ready for trials if you ask the Lord to use you for His kingdom. Boy was she right. This has been a trial I never thought I would go through. At different stages in my life God was allowing me to experience challenges in life that have helped me through this last year. I would even say that my first surgery helped me to understand that I might not bear my own children. Not that this “understanding” made it easier, but I guess it allowed me to look at my future without that possibility. That God made me not just so I can bear children He has a larger purpose for me than I do for myself. He thinks more highly of me than I ever will.
I am looking forward to this next year. Gary and I will at least be in Tucson through this year, we are planning on taking it year by year and seeing where the Lord will lead us. It might be continuing in Tucson, it might be Denver, or maybe somewhere completely different. If there is anything this last year taught me, is that making my own plans is really silly.
English Standard Version (ESV)
Do Not Be Anxious
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?[a] 28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. 34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.